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Because I realised He is here.

Today I stopped asking who He is because I can see He is the One who manifested Himself in Nature. And we are part of nature, even though we’re trying to deny it.

Some people speak about the law of attraction. Well, I would simply call it the law of Love.

These days, it’s lovely outside. With spring drawing in, every day seems a great miracle to me. In the morning, nothing can keep me in bed long enough, because I simply must get up and see the sunlight – and live.

The Creator of this life and the whole world did some amazing things. When I go to the park, or up the hills, or when I’m in a forest, I feel that this is what we were meant to enjoy fully – nature, fresh air, sunshine, walking… I love it. I love being in the nature, I love looking at the sunset – it quietens me down and I realise that there’s so much more to life than what we see in our normal working days.

Thank you for the nature and that I can enjoy it.

It’s terrible to realise that you’ve again spent a few days without prayer, without going to the nature or without a deeper meeting with a friend.  It’s sad to find out that again you’ve been neglecting that real meaning of life – love. How can I live a happy life when I don’t invest into my relationship with God, with my friends, and with myself?

What a day is it, when I don’t even look at the sky? How can I love when I don’t put time into realising how much I am being loved?

Is there a proper expression for the greatness of God? He Himself expressed it  in the vast Universe, nature, creating humans and managing it all, using the wonderful laws of nature and putting it all together in that nice chaos where there are no two things the same, yet all works perfectly with harmony…

I am just a tiny part of this world, with a few billions of cells, and a few limbs and senses, and a mind to discover and ponder over things. I can see, I can breath, I can jump and I can sing. I can express my own spirit by creating new things – similar to what God does. I can live in harmony with the rest of the world and simply be the expression of God myself. Just like a child, when they look around with their big innocent eyes – yes, I am here for God to love me. I am here to be happy and to dance in love.

“A precious sparking diamond is formed in a mass of rock in the depths of the earth over millions of years. Do you emerge from the interior in the same way?”

Recent weeks I felt God was leading me through the nature. Praying at the nearby river, cycling along the sea, watching stars at night and counting lights of the sleeping city.

It was all beautiful and so easy to focus on God, when I could see His works.

Yesterday I felt something else – as if I was to reveal Him in my relationships – something like the Level 2 in my spiritual life. Uncover God in other people.

When I was meditating in nature, it was really about finding time to go out and stay there for a while. If I am to meditate people, I need to stop all my “hugely important” work, and focus on them. Focus on those who live with me, those who I pass by, those who will give me a call…

But there’s a very important note to be made here: it’s not about me helping them. Why should I think that I am to help people – to save them, to put an end to their problems? How could I dare?!

In most cases, I am poorer than other people, so why would I believe that I could help them? I shouldn’t approach people with that attitude: “Hi Sarah, I will now listen to you because I am going to help you. You know, I am so great that you can tell me about your problems and I will solve them.”

Of course, I would love to help people – but is it in my capacity? Shouldn’t I rather just listen to them fully, understand them and just be with them? Shouldn’t I be their friend as opposed to their “saviour”?

Yes, I will help people, I will give them advice if I have some to give – but will not consider myself wiser, or smarter, or in any way above them. They are the source of my meditation, they are God’s message for me now.

This morning I went running. Finally, after about a year, I found the strength to get up and go. It was brilliant, the weather was great – one of those mornings when you may tell yourself: ‘It would be worth living just for this one while.‘

I didn’t do much for start, but then I went on with exercising with my eyes. Being ‘half blind’ (nothing serious, just -2.00), I followed the advice of Mr. Bates who developed a set of exercises for the eyes if you want to improve your sight.

So I was ‘looking’ into the sun with my eyes closed, then ‘palming’ (looking in the darkness when you cover your eyes with palms) etc. In the end I just stayed still, embracing on one of the trees, sucking all the energy from ‘him’ and just looking.

Looking into the distance, looking at things that were closer… Simply, looking. And then a thought from one of the books I had read on improving your vision came to me: “When you are looking, you should focus your sight on particular things, don’t daydream with your eyes open, because then they don’t know what to look at – whether at the image in your mind or at what is around you.” And then I maybe got it – I should stop my internal dialogue, stop my daydreaming (or do it with my eyes closed) and focus on what is around me.

What is around me. What does the sun, the river, the grass and the trees – what do all these ‘things’ want to tell me? What can I see around me? What do the cars, the town, the streets, the people, the birds… what do they all want to show me? What does the world want me to see?

As so far, I was looking through my glasses (not always necessarily rose-tilted) and I couldn’t see all this, because I was merely looking at my own pictures in my mind. Talking to myself, I was captured in the prison of my own world. And so I lost so much of the real world.

Now is the time to start looking. Look and see what beauties we have around us. Look and see who other people are, how they live, how they love, how they pray, how they smile or cry.

Look and see.

Lord, you gave me the gift of my eyes. And while it may take me several months or years to get my vision back, I want to thank you for every single beam of light that I was able to see so far. Thank you for every ant on the path, thanks for every leaf of a tree, thanks for every blink of my eyes. You are the Creator of all this, you are the Giver and all I can do, is just look and see. Please, don’t let me pass by and not notice your wonders. Please, teach me how to look and see.

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RELATIONSHIPS

• Are you too much dependent on few people – emotionally?
• Do you want everybody to admire you?
• Do you want to please everybody?

Listen more and be yourself!

WORK

• Do you want to be perfect?

Play more and be creative!

GOD

• Do you force yourself to pray and you are not successful?

Enjoy the prayer, meditate, go to church!

NATURE

• You love being in nature but don’t have enough time for it?

Go to the park every morning!

SPORT

• Are you lazy, especially after you’ve had a big dinner?
• Do you often overdo it?

Attend classes, enjoy it – no goals, no pressure!

SO WHY ALL THIS?

Because I really want to be:

• Healthy
• Strong
• Free – having lots of free time
• Fit & full of energy
• Slim & good-looking
• Smiling
• Humble
• Loving & understanding
• Having enough money to get by easily

So that I can help those who are suffering – and this is the only way I can really grow. I want to share their pain, I want to give them my smile.

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Maybe even too healthy. When I was 23, my father suffered from varicose veins and he was in such pain, that he said he would die to get rid of it. No sleep at night, no moving during the day. And the never-ending pain. In his early fifties, no surprise, you could think. But let me tell you what happened next.

After weeks of this extreme pain, when doctors were helpless and they couldn’t give any better advice, although they would love to, and they also felt very sorry for him, he decided to take the situation into his own hands.

Searching on the Internet – the first hint he got was simple – you should change your diet. Maybe there was something about his nutrition that would help him to stop the annoying pain.

So the first thing he bumped into was vegetarianism. He was always a strong man, grew up in the countryside, a “man of nature”, a passionate gardener and a real hard-worker. You can imagine the relationship of such a man to meat – you simply must have it – as it gives you all the energy you need!

But now, being nailed down to his bed, he sacrificed his life-time ideology, values and his very life style – and said good-bye to eating meat.

My Mum, his great supporter, followed him shortly. But to stop eating meat was not enough.

While my Dad’s health started to improve slowly – while he was still taking huge amounts of drugs and antibiotics – he found a piece that would change his life. Forever.

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When you look at a baby, sleeping in a pram, you must smile. And you see how vulnerable he or she is, they cannot protect themselves, they just “are”.

Then the baby wakes up, looks around and just takes in everything what’s going on around. Without any judgements, any prejudices. Just pure perception.

And whatever the baby does, will it cry for milk or spit the dummy, still it is ok and nobody will tell him off.

So when does it happen that we turn into “conscious” beings, judging everything around us, and marking others as guilty, and then feeling guilty ourselves?

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged.”

What could have happened in my life that I started to do something I “should not”?

What if I was living in a forest, without any human rules, accepting just the rules of nature? What if there was no “STOP” or no “don’t” other than those that would save my life?

What if there were no official rules in relationships with people? What if I could tell everybody straight away what I think of them? What if there was an honest look into everyone’s eyes? What if I would not judge others, condemning them of being guilty? What if I was just myself?

What if I did what is healthy and wise, without thinking about all those “do’s” and “dont’s”?

What if I was purely myself, what if I always did what I want?

Would I feel guilty then? Would I be guilty?

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Would you believe there is a way to learn how to “think outside the box“? I will share with you what my boss gave me:

1. Get out of your office and go to the park.
2. Find a nice and easy path that would take you about 5 mins to walk.
3. Start to walk – but very slowly, so that the journey takes you 15 mins, instead of 5.
4. Be fully present, feel yourself, feel everything that surrounds you – grass, trees, birds.
5. Listen to the sounds, watch the colours, feel the breeze.
6. During the walk, don’t think about the work at all!!!
7. Come back to your office and continue working.

When you practise this every day, your mind will become more relaxed and suddenly you will gain a different outlook on life and your thoughts will become more creative, you will see things from a different angle.

Will you give it a chance?

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